Wow. I’m going to risk being late from lunch to respond lest I get busy and forget.
I have been the one without keys.
I am also very near a Master’s Degree in counseling psych. I quit working towards that when I realized I had nothing anywhere near the fortitude it would take to immerse myself in other people’s demons.
You are a warrior. You are rare, and fierce, and incredibly strong and there is nothing you could do that could ever make what happened your fault.
There are abusers and predators in the mental health field and those people are evil.
But you are not them. And you were, I promise, one person in the world ( maybe the only one) that made that boy question his decision before it was made.
One person can’t change a mind all on its own. You were outnumbered by forces darker than one person can banish.
But you tried.
And still, you try.
And you give that boy a legacy.