I guess my real questions is this: If I hypothetically won the lottery tomorrow and had all the means to provide for myself and my baby, is the mindset I currently foster enough to be a good dad?
Well, what do YOU think?
I get where you’re at right now. I don’t know what kind of trouble you got yourself into, but I’ve been in trouble, too. It’s been almost 7 years and I’m still clawing my way out of the hole I dug myself into.
And this country, unfortunately and contrary to common political lip service, is not invested in second chances. So, you don’t have to convince me of the magnitude of the uphill battle you’re facing.
When I lost it all, my kids were 3 and 7. Their dad took them for four months, illegally but what the hell does that matter. He finally was forced to re-establish the relationship between the kids and me.
I have wondered many times whether I could have come back from that if I had no children to come back for, and though that should never be the reason to HAVE kids, i’m pretty sure they are the very reason I’m still breathing today.
I also know that had i only had myself to consider, it would have been far easier to get my feet back under me. As it was, I had an incredibly difficult time managing all three of us, without a car for the first 4 years. But, you know, it’s a catch 22: if i hadn’t had the children, I probably would have stayed out there until i died, so it wouldn’t have mattered that getting myself put back together would have been easier as I would have been dead. :) i’m probably up too late. Starting to stupid-tired ramble.