This is, as always, a flawless window into your heart. Your beautiful, generous, selfless heart. ❤
But I hope you weren’t being literal about your rock bottom. I don’t think you were; Worrying about something that may never happen (or worrying at all, really) puts us in a place of fear and powerlessness. Even if something is inevitable, if it can’t be altered, there is no value in worrying beforehand. I know you know this and that your life is not on hold over this, and I also know you are the heart and soul of your family and telling you not to worry is ridiculous. Of course you will worry. We all worry.
Just don’t live there.
Keep living here, where everything is still just fine and dandy, give or take.
There is always plenty of time to feel bad about a bad thing if or when it actually happens.
No head start necessary. ❤