That’s what I thought when, four years after the end of my abusive marriage, I finally dared to venture into another relationship…this one with my high school first love 25 years later. He was so different from my ex…yeah…later I would discover he was so much worse.

How did I let it happen again? I knew the signs. I should have seen it coming.

Except.

This is what they do. And they are teaching the master class.

You aren’t an idiot. I know how you feel, we escape these men and suddenly we are right back underneath them in a way we can’t defend against. This time we DO see them coming. AND IT DOESNT FUCKING MATTER.

I don’t have answers. But you are not an idiot.

I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up, but I know I want it to be spelled right and punctuated correctly. I guess that’s something.

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