Molly, I have SOOO been there. I felt like I was back there for a few minutes just now. That feeling, don’t want to live don’t want to die (for me, anyway. because even though I wanted to die with every conscious cell in my body, if I had REALLY wanted to die, I would be dead. )
If you ever need to talk about stuff, my sobriety date (this time) is 10/10/10 so I have a little time too. I want to highlight so many things but my Surface Pro won’t let me and I have an out of town guest who keeps talking while I’m trying to read. But I swear, it was like you were watching when it happened to me and just telling my story.
I will be back.