I’m buried beneath a mountain of ‘off the cuff’ comments and hugely cathartic words. Some are mine. Some I’ve borrowed. Some I haven’t even gotten a chance to let soak in yet.

When I first began to put words down here, wading through was easy. It still required navigation, but I could handle it. But somewhere along the way, this has become too much for me to bear. I’m drowning.

If you need background, try this on for size: I am the proud owner of a badass case of the ADHDs. I have been my entire life, and I’ve developed some awesome coping strategies that normalize my existence without depriving me of what I find to be almost super human perks associated with this “disorder” .

However, to be completely honest, I can get easily overwhelmed. My brain can juggle six or seven “things” pretty easily. Things can refer to a list of rules, or projects I’m working on at my day job, or plots of a specific author’s novels.

Give me eight?

I’m back to zero. It’s not like I can just pretend number eight didn’t happen and happily backtrack to handling one through seven.

I’m blank.

I illustrate this point with a reference to my days as a food server. I could handle a seven top without a notepad and pen. Drinks, apps, dinner, and dessert for 7 or less, all in my head. This included alterations to the menu, extra bread, refills, figuring the check, and oh, yeah,

my other 6 tables.

I don’t know how I could keep that volume of information straight and then watch it topple when I got seated with table number eight, or when an unexpected straggler showed up to the party of seven.

Anyway, I handled this by deciding to write everything down from the first table to the last, which was a total bummer. Because doing it in my head was kind of a cool skill.

I’ve figured out how to handle reaching number eight in almost every situation I’ve encountered, but I have to admit, Medium

You’ve stumped me. The bookmark feature helps some, but I don’t always remember to use it and if I don’t, I’m pretty much screwed later on.

Please, can you help me with a few things?

Here is my wish list:

  • I would love to be able to group my interactions with individual writers together. Not for other people to see, necessarily. Just on my page. For example, (and I use this example because this just happened and it’s the reason I’m writing this plea) if I know I received a response from my buddy Sean Howard that I really wanted to reply to but needed to put aside until after work, because it was going to require more than an off-the-cuff answer, it would be lovely if I could go somewhere on my page, click his name, and be transported to a place where our little friendship lived.
  • I would love to be able to quickly locate the stories that originated here, written by me, exclusive of ‘stories’ I wrote as a response to stories that originated elsewhere, written by others. Is there no way to separate the two? I have absolutely LOST stories here because of all the fluff in the middle. It makes me wary of responding to other people’s work, which is not okay with me. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO EXPRESS MY APPRECIATION WITHOUT DREADING THAT IT WILL FEEL LIKE A PUNISHMENT LATER ON.
  • Similarly, I would love to click on someone’s profile, and be directed to their page, just like now. But once I got there, I would love to be able to sift quickly through their stories of origin, exclusive of ‘stories’ they wrote as responses to someone else’s original work.

I’m sure there are more things I would love, but three seem like enough to start. And I know there is a better way to address these issues; some process I’m supposed to follow, or person I’m supposed to contact. I know, because I asked before and someone responded with a well-written explanation for my future reference.

I JUST CAN’T FIND IT.

I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up, but I know I want it to be spelled right and punctuated correctly. I guess that’s something.

I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up, but I know I want it to be spelled right and punctuated correctly. I guess that’s something.