Jules, you are a doll. ☺ A sexy doll who alternates a little coquettishness with a lot of molten lava and leaves men better than you found them ( I’d bet on that).
I’m not exactly jealous of you, but sometimes I wish I still wanted to be that way…
No. What I mean to say is that I wish I hadn’t realized I was doing so much acting all these years. I’ve had a lot of sex, and I’ve always been the most adventurous of my friends, willing to lead a man anywhere. I took great pride in satisfying my men. And I convinced myself that was enough.
But with great sadness I realized several years ago that I was unable to let them satisfy me.
And just a couple of months ago I sat down and really inventoried my sexual history and realized that my VERY BEST SEXUAL EXPERIENCES were my earliest ones. And I had been shutting pieces of myself off little by little ever since, until finally, I found no pleasure in the act at all.
Don’t get me wrong. I have a LOT of orgasms. But somehow my baggage has left me unable to let my guard down with a partner.
So, shit ass fuck now I have to do WORK around my stupid garbage and figure myself out or I’m probably never going to have sex again and that would be a tragedy because I should be having all that 'in my 40’s best sex of my life' sex and I AM SO NOT DOING THAT!!!
Just a little insight into me.