I understand and hope it’s temporary. It seems I only come lately when tagged and all I get tagged about is that circular discussion. But I appreciate that someone’s considered me at all, and it feels rude to ignore that. I think anyone who has mentioned my name in reference has done so with good intentions.

But I really have no love for this place right now. Some of the people, for sure. But not the place. I start to write and it doesn’t feel good. It feels forced and I feel this pull to pretend everything is all sunshine and rainbows and it isn’t.

I chose to block a couple of writers to hopefully end the negativity I kept seeing but I keep hearing my name out in the ether and I think maybe it’s worse that some drama is happening that I can’t even SEE and yet, I’m involved.

It all feels very unsafe. And fucking endless. I can’t believe it has continued.

And I understand when new people get pulled in, because it is new to them. So I’ve got nothing but compassion for that. But I can’t understand how the OPs are continuing to fan the flame.

Aren’t they sick to death of this?

Jay I really hope you’re back soon. I may not be able to write worth a Damn right now, but I’m finding your stuff to be some of my better reasons for sticking around. I find that not writing means I’m getting a lot more reading done.

I hope I didn’t cause you to feel this way. I really hope that. ☹

I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up, but I know I want it to be spelled right and punctuated correctly. I guess that’s something.

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