I know, Mike. This is something that has always bothered me. Physically, men are more capable of overpowering an unwilling female victim. But women have different powers. There are certain expectations placed upon men.

And then there is my situation. I was abused. And I was assaulted. And what that did to me was make me very cavalier about sex. I did it to get it out of the way. I. Don’t think I was present during, even once.

I was totally screwed up, no pun intended. And usually very drunk. And any person with any sense should have known better than to engage in drunk, damaged-psyche sex with me.

But these were college boys. Who HAD no sense. They didn’t give a crap about me, but they sure as hell weren’t abjectly trying to hurt me or further damage me. They DID, but how could they have known that?

I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up, but I know I want it to be spelled right and punctuated correctly. I guess that’s something.

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