Aww thank you, Crystal Lady! (can’t tag you for some reason). I love Bonnie Raitt. ❤

How cool that you pushed past the first experience and got to breastfeed your other children the first year!

I’m pretty sure I had breastfeeding PTSD after Alaina. If that’s a thing lol. I would automatically tense at feeding time and hate every minute. It turned out okay because when Alex had his lung hemorrhage and had to be in the hospital for so long, my milk would have dried up anyway. I could have pumped I guess, but by then I barely had milk anyway (4 weeks after I stopped. Yes, I am a cow.)

I remember the day it was totally gone, though, I cried. I knew he was my last baby, and that now a time had past I could never get back. The time when only I had what my baby needed…it was like part of the miracle was gone.

Bittersweet for sure.

I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up, but I know I want it to be spelled right and punctuated correctly. I guess that’s something.

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