Aww Stuart, dear man. I’m so sorry. I know how frustrating and exhausting and depressing this has to be. I hope you know that whether you are there or not really DOES make a difference. Just because it is internal and not easily recognized doesn’t mean it isn’t there.
For him, but also for you. Because future you will not have to regret the moments you chose to spend away from him. Maybe its not like he will notice either way. Right?
But you would know.
Hugs. This part of being a child is harder than this part of being a parent, I think.
Its one of the only parts that is. 💜